feeling deeply

the path of activism has been a recent calling that has given me enormous passion and a way to externalize  my dreams for a better more just world. it's been rewarding and the most challenging path i have ever been on. now, i understand why i spent years devoting my life completely to yoga and meditation, so that i could begin this path with the inner strength to withstand the winds of hopelessness, anger and despair. 

today, i was reading julia butterfly hill's blog and i was so moved by the entry titled the meaning in life. 

"i LOVE how wonderful the Universe is sometimes. Other times, i rage into the darkness and feel like i have had enough of being alive. i am a woman of extremes it seems. i feel things deeply. Just about everything.

So when i feel delight and joy, i feel it completely. When i feel anger, sadness, and despair, i feel it equally deeply. Sometimes these feelings come in waves that are only moments apart.

And that is how my life has always been—except for the years i completely shut down and went numb because i did not know how to process it all. And sometimes, i still go through moments like that where i go through numbness and shut down.

But mostly, i work to remain present, open, loving, accepting, and in the space of gratitude. And the result is, i often end up having some pretty magical experiences."

i am the same way in terms of feeling, i feel things deeply and i think it's that openness to feel that has allowed to cultivate compassion for other beings, humans as well as all species in nature. i am writing this today, to reming myself, that even if the things i encounter in life, all the pain, all the suffering, all the injustice that lies underneath consumerism, capitalism, imperialism and all other ways of oppression existing in society today, become at points overwhelming, saddening and takes a toll in my own life. 

i will always keep fighting and standing up for all injustices in the world, for all the lives that are being sacrificed in the name of profit and that i will always strive to find ways to make this journey self-sustaining without becoming self-absorbed and that i will always strive to find new and creative ways and effective ways to stand up for you and for me and for us. i will always strive to give up a deeper part of myself and uncover new freedoms in which i can give my life more fully to being of service to the world.

my love and gratitude goes towards all the living beings that have stood up for social and environmental justice, those that have generously devoted their lives to protect the sacredness of all life and for all of you that have shared this road with me and have shown me my own power to create change. cheers for all the times we have celebrated our voice, our power, our interconnection and interbeing.

thank you so very much, i love you so much!!!! and because of you, i can continue this journey, i can keep fighting. may we keep supporting and celebrating each other for eternity!