following my heart

last week, i went on an amazing camping trip in the everglades. the moon was beautiful, the sun was heart-warming, amazing heart to heart conversations, creating closeness with living being in my environment. i am recognizing more and more plants, finding it enjoyable to sit down with a quiet mind and breathing deeply without the need to "be doing something", being with a place and all living beings that inhabit it. the bird season has just begun and i spent a lot of time observing blue herons, anhingas and sand hill cranes. i remembered the depth found when being immersed in natural environments. i did not miss technology at all. i saw how it creates a false impression of relationship, when many times it's just the convenience of a click of a button.

since then, i started taking a mindful break from technology, began journaling more and writing letters to friends. i love using my hands to create. i want to keep in touch with people through care and interaction that is more tangible than a click in cyber space. slowly using my cel phone less and less, thinking about a way to not be attached to a phone and its screen. considering closing my blog and sharing my journal with all that would like to and having conversations about life more openly.

i feel a deep transformation unfolding in my soul, finding my true self and tapping into my essence, my happiness. there's a more stable freedom unleashing from that space. i am grateful to be able to stop and engage critically with my inner self when i reflect on my life. I CAN CHOOSE MY HAPPINESS, i do not have to blindly follow what society "dictates", it's ultimately my choice and responsibility to find the rhythm of my drum/ my heart and dance and flow through life while honoring my own rhythm. things in life change, it's part of growth, no need to be the same every single day. the beauty of cycles is that no day is ever the same. allowing myself to go through change opens the door to explore uncovered territory and journey into the discovery of unlimited possibility.

i can feel shivers all over my body as all my cells realign themselves as i let them be who they want to be without repressing them or forcing them to be a certain way. letting go of the need to be accepted, letting go of that insecurity and cultivating gentle self-confidence.