mom

just had a great and beautiful heart to heart with mom. i truly admire the commitment, our family has towards each other and we stick together when it might be easy to just give up. which reminds me of this quote by bell hooks: "When we face pain in relationships our first response is often to sever bonds rather than to maintain commitment."the combination of commitment and love can create the most amazing transformations. i love those moments of total awe when the impossible happens and love prevails. to me love is what makes a house a home. being able to feel at home is so important for me. i have realized this is especially true in times of transition. 


lately, i love being home. i needed this so much. i am in a cycle where to feel balanced i need time to process internally a lot of things. i think, because this time i want to transition mindfully and intentionally. being home is one of the things i need the most right now.
this moment seems like a miracle! enjoying quiet moments by myself used to be one of the things that i did not enjoy at all. i needed to be either moving, doing something or with someone to feel happy. basically, i needed to be distracted. now, i am enjoying being by myself and being with people and i am so grateful for this transformation. i don't feel the need of being distracted and i am starting to grasp the idea of being, being in the present moment. i feel so much more rooted, grounded and balanced.
living in tune with cycles is amazing. one of the treasures of nature. when i live in harmony with the cycles in natue and within myself, everything is more effortless and graceful. life flows naturally and organically. it also feels great to honor my needs.