where are you love?

i miss the feeling when love is strong and everywhere and all around. i can still remember the first time i fell in love, that was back in high school. i remember never being hurt, never being heart broken and feeling that being in love could conquer everything. i remember breathing and living being in love. i remember not being afraid to say anything, feeling that you could understand it all. you would look at me in the eyes or hold my hand, and you would KNOW, travel lifetimes and know what my heart was feeling. you were the fastest traveler i have ever known.

we would walk to places, we would walk everywhere even when if it was raining and have the best time of our lives. everyday with you was the best day of my life. your presence would inspire me and bring out the best in me. i would feel so special and feel like i was made perfectly and just for you. 

then, i grew up and i studied physics. i learned about energy and i thought that was so cool: that matter is never destroyed and only transformed. i thought wow love is never destroyed and just transformed into another kind of love. there was always a little part of your love that never transformed, that stayed with me and that i know will stay with me for lifetimes to come. now, the love you showed me has travelled and dispersed. i love life and i love nature. but tonight i wonder if i will ever love someone like i loved you, with no fears, without hiding not even a piece of who i am, with total hope and faith.